Okay, I’m gonna lay it out here. This has been a hard few months for me. Nothing specific, just the normal holiday business. Add to that trying to fit all of the Christmas shopping/programs/parties/preparation/fun in while still getting adjusted to our first year of homeschooling and getting any amount of work done. It has not been easy for me, I admit. Most of the things that I would normally do during the day I now must do at night, because homeschooling our daughter takes up so much of my time during the day time hours. Inevitably that means that the things that I would normally do at night either get done very, very late at night or not at all, especially at this time of the year… so I’m feeling a bit stressed. Overwhelmed you might say. Things that I enjoy doing for myself (exercising, reading, hanging out with my husband for goodness sake, having lunch with my best friend) rarely happen.
In no way do I regret the choice to bring Abby home and educate her here. I love that part! It is rewarding and we see a difference in her. She is happier, less stressed, and blossoming. I am so proud of her.
But being responsible for our daughter’s education is a big sacrifice of time. I knew it would be, but I guess I couldn’t know how it would play out and how it would affect me until we were in the middle of it. It seems to me that homeschool naysayers are always worried about the child becoming isolated, but what about the parent who is giving up their time, giving up their freedom to have lunch and an adult conversation with their best friend… without a child sitting in, hanging on every word? It’s a bit like having a newborn again, in a way. She is with me all of the time. I love her to the death, and this is exactly what I want. I want time with her, I want to invest in her life before she graduates and moves on, grows up. So having her with me is lovely and wonderful and I truly do love every minute of it!
I guess for me it’s a matter of figuring out the balance. How to I maintain my self and stay healthy mentally? How to I manage time so that I can have time and a conversation with my husband that doesn’t revolve around bedtime routines. How do I fit in time for exercise, working on my next sewing pattern, spending time with my sister, my mom, my best friend, for this blog? I honestly don’t know. I sit in awe of others and wonder how they do it.
Maybe you have some advice for me?
In the meantime, I enjoyed this segment that my friend Alli did on the Today Show last week. I’m trying to take their advice and realize that if everything on my holiday to-do list doesn’t get done it’s ok! Maybe this will resonate with you too.